Sunday, December 13 1761

No service at our church in the morning, Mr Porter being ill. In the forenoon Thomas Durrant and I walked down to Mrs Browne’s, but did not stay. I dined on a piece of beef roasted. My-self and servants at church in the afternoon, where we had a sermon preached by the Rev Mr Jones, curate of Waldron, from Ecclesiastes 12:13: “Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.”

After churchtime Thomas Durrant and myself walked down to Whyly, where we stayed and spent the evening, and, to my eternal shame be it spoken, came home not thoroughly sober. Oh, my imprudence: what frailty and perverseness is there in human nature! If I could have the resolution to drink only water, as my brains are so weak, happy would it be for me, for I think the very smell of liquor intoxicates my brain and when reason is lulled to sleep, then, then, undoubtedly appetite reigns triumphant, and we no longer can be said (with any propriety of reason) to be rational creatures, but rather brutes. Oh, how derogatory are such actions from the Christian religion… [20 words omitted]. My desire is to be guilty of no one action that may justly be called vicious, but who can be said never to offend? What poor creatures we are without divine grace… [352 words omitted].

Saturday, December 12 1761

…I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. At home all day and pretty busy. In the evening Joseph Fuller smoked a pipe with me.

N.B.: By way of a postscript to what I wrote yesterday relating to Burrage’s affair, I doubt not but to every human and well-disposed person (especially in this land of liberty) (and freedom) there must at the first thought something appear shocking to humane nature at the prospect of a person’s suffering punishment even when his crimes justly merit it, and we are, as it were, instantaneously struck with a fellow-feeling for the delinquent, and at the same time sympathize and as it were bear a part of his punishment, but so soon as the first starts of the impression made on ow minds by the representation of outward objects (if I may be allowed the expression) are over and reason resumes its place, we shall then consider and reflect that, were not human laws in some measure executed, there could be no security of property, and when a person is become truly obnoxious to the laws of his country, totally to pervert the executing of justice would be as great a crime as wholly to exclude mercy, so that what before appeared as compassion and pity we shall now look upon rather as pusillanimity and as proceeding from fear, rather than from a true principle of mercy. Therefore in my opinion justice with humanity should be first executed and then let mercy and benevolence open their extended wings and close the scene.

N.B.: Were the executive part of our laws quite laid aside (as I fear they are in many cases too much) then mercy would cease to be a virtue, and become a real vice.

Friday, December 11 1761

…In the evening down at Mr Porter’s a little time. This day we brought home by two men (whom our parish had sent on purpose) Will Burrage, who had absconded above 5 years ago and left a wife and 6 small children as a burden to the parish. Now as the affair makes a great noise and confusion in the place and the inhabitants seem much divided in their opinion about the treatment which he deserves to meet with, I shall for the future satisfaction of anyone who may happen to see my memoirs deliver my sentiments in the affair:

First, Mr Porter, Mr Coates and Mr French are desirous he should suffer the punishment due to so atrocious a crime as deserting his family, by which means they have been an expense to the parish of upwards of £50, and the poor woman become a lunatic through grief, in the most rigorous manner. The rest of the people are all desirous he should escape without any further punishment.

Neither of these methods is I think agreeable to reason or justice, for as to the first I think it is too severe, as many things appear in his favor, and as to his first going away I doubt he had some faint reason for so doing, (though none adequate to answer the leaving his family), such as his wife and he living unhappy through the instigation and unhappy temper of her mother, who lived with them, and the many attempts made by the first mentioned gentlemen to reduce the price of day labor by bringing into the parish certificate-men [paupers with certificates from their own parishes] for that purpose, which undoubtedly must be very disheartening to an industrious man and what I think hardly just and human. Then, since he has been in custody he has behaved extremely well, giving the men no trouble, and coming home with a seeming cheerfulness, and at the same time promising to maintain and do the best for his family in his power.

These things duly considered should I presume be some mitigation of the rigorous punishment due to his crime (which must be allowed great). The greatest number or body of the people who are for releasing him immediately plead that it will be of no service to the parish to confine him in the house of correction, and that the interest to the parish barely considered should be a motive sufficient to release him. This I think savors too much of a contracted and self-interested mind, or rather a pusillanimous disposition, neither of which methods I approve of.

I would then advise justice should take place in such a manner that a strict eye may be had to mercy, and not in the height of executing justice to forget that benign virtue. No, I would not but that it might be so tempered together as not to interfere or clash with each other, for undoubtedly he ought to suffer in some manner, either by confinement or corporal punishment, or both, in order to deter others from the same offence, but then I would have mercy so far take place that he might be convinced his punishment did not proceed from choice but as it were from real necessity in order to keep a due subordination in the parish and that the mitigation of the punishment proceeded altogether from the lenity of the officers and gentlemen of the parish. This if I can form any judgment of the affair would seem the most eligible way, as justice would not be perverted and yet mercy shine through the whole in the most beautiful and delightful colors. However as I write or think not to direct others, only to deliver my own sentiments in the affair, if my arguments were brought to the test sand strictly scrutinized they might perhaps be found quite insignificant and of no weight. Therefore I shall with all due deference submit to the opinion of them who are better judges.

Wednesday, December 9 1761

Paid Joseph Fuller in cash 0.4.4, in full for the following meat bought of him today:

1 bullock’s cheek0.0.10
6 lbs beef0.1.5½
1 leg of mutton 8 1/4 lbs0.2.0½

I dined on a piece of beef boiled, a piece of pork and turnips. In the evening went down to Joseph Fuller’s, where I stayed and supped and came home about 10:10. At home all day, and pretty busy; but yet it is a most melancholy time: the pleasure I used to find in the company of that most valuable creature is now all heavy upon my mind.

Sunday, December 6 1761

No service at our church in the morning, Mr Porter being ill. One of my servants went to Chiddingly Church. Sam Jenner coming to church, and there being no service, he came in and sat with me, to whom I read one of Tillotson’s sermons. I dined on a piece of bacon and pork boiled, a plain pudding and turnips. Myself and servants at church in the afternoon, where we had a sermon preached by the Rev Mr Jones, curate of Waldron, from John 5:39: “Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me.”

Mr Thornton and Thomas Durrant drank tea with me, to whom I. read two of Tillotson’s sermons… This morning died Ricard Page, after a few days’ illness.

Saturday, December 5 1761

Rec’d of Ben Shelley in cash 12/8; viz.,

Shelley Dr.
To money delivered to him the 1st instant50. 0.0
To money received of Mr Ben Treacher in full for rabbit skins1.19.8
51.19.8
Per Contra Cr.
Dec. 2:To cash paid Mr Will Margesson on my account50.0.0
2nd.To Mr Joseph Goodchild on account of Thomas Overing in lieu of the money received of him the 30th ult1.7.0
To cash received today0.12.8
51.19.8

I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner… At home all day.

Friday, December 4 1761

After breakfast Joseph Fuller and I walked down to Halland in order to consult Mr Coates in regard to Burrage’s affair, from whence I went to Bentley and came back and dined with Mr Coates on part of a neck of mutton stewed, and piece of beef dressed a la mode (my servants at home dining on a piece of bacon boiled, a plain suet pudding and turnips)…

Joseph Fuller Jr smoked a pipe with me in the evening, as did Mr French, who poor creature is I think quite stupid through drinking.