Rec’d of Thomas Braizer of Laughton in cash £9, of which 4.10.0 is in full for 1 year’s interest due the 26th June last on a freehold mortgage, and the remaining 4.10.0 is in full for l year’s interest due on a copyhold mortgage the 24th day of November last, both of which I received for the use of myself and the other devisees in trust of Mr Will Piper deceased…
At home all day and not very busy. In the evening Joseph Fuller Jr sat with me some time. Let me once more describe my uneasy situation, but at the same time acknowledge the many blessings of Providence which I enjoy far superior to many of my fellow creatures perhaps far more deserving of them than myself. But alas! what afflicts me is the loss of my dear Peggy,though in this I in no ways repine at the allwise dispensations of Providence. For I am well assured whatever is by the appointment of heaven is best for us, and I think it my duty to cheerfully submit… [131 words omitted]…
No one but a servant to trust the care of my concerns to or the management of my household affairs, which are now all confusion. My affairs abroad are neglected by my confinement at home, and were I to be more from home, my affairs there perhaps might still suffer a greater injury from my absence… [16 words omitted]… and for want of the company of the more softer sex and through my overmuch confinement I know I am become extreme awkward, and a certain roughness and boistrousness of disposition has seized on my mind. So the want of those advantages which flow from society and a free intercourse with the world and a too great delight in reading have brought my mind to that great degree of moroseness that it is neither agreeable to myself, nor can my company be so to others.