Friday, February 4 1763

…I dined on a beef pudding and cabbage. My late servant stayed with me all day and aired all my wife’s clothes.

Sam Jenner and I played a few games of cribbage in the evening; I neither won or lost. He stayed all night. At home all day and pretty busy, but yet my mind is quite tumultuous, hardly knowing which way to pursue or what way of life to engage in. To keep house with servants in the business I am situated in is not either agreeable to my naturel inclination or advantageous to my interest. No, it is not, for to the one it is quite different from, and the other I doubt itis greatly prejudicial to.

At the same time I doubt my trade will hardly answer the expenses of a family which might in all probability be the consequence of marriage. Though undoubtedly could I meet with a virtuous and discreet girl (one whose person I could like), who had taken more care to adorn the internal than external parts, I say with such a one I should prefer marriage before a single life, a life in my opinion agreeable to the dictates of nature, reason and religion. For agreeable to the apostle marriage is honorable in all men and the bed undefiled, though marriage I doubt in this licentious and libertine age is too oft entered with lucrative views or to gratify some inordinate passion, both of which I presume are contrary to the real institution of marriage. For in my mind virtue and as sincere love or friendship for each other seems the only basis to build a lasting happiness upon in the marriage state. Then so long as life continues, so long will happiness and love continue to increase. Happy, for ever happy, beyond the power of imagination to describe, are they whose lot it is, happy, may we presume, to all eternity.
 

Saturday, February 5 1763

My late servant dined with me on a hot beef pie. Rec’d a present from my father Slater by the carrier of a sparerib. In the evening my brother came over; he stayed, drank tea with me, spent the evening, with whom I supped on some bread and cheese; came [went] home about 10:30.

My late servant stayed all night. Pretty busy in the day. Virtue, how amiable art thou in the eye of man!… [40 words omitted]

Sunday, Febraury 6 1763

Myself only at church in the morning… My late servant dined with me on a piece of beef roasted and horse radish. No service at our church in the afternoon, Mr Porter preaching at Laughton. Thomas Durrant drank tea with me, to whom in the evening I read three of Tillotson’s sermons. My late servant stayed all night.

Monday, February 7 1763

In the morning James Marchant and Elizabeth Mepham were married, and I was what is commonly called Father, and also together with Thomas Davy signed the register book. My servant dined with her brother and sister, the new married couple, and [I and my late servant dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner.

In the evening went down to Jones’s, where we had a public vestry. Stayed there till about 10:10. Then I went to the wedding house and sat and smoked several pipes in company with Mr Robert Hook, Thomas Durrant, Thomas Davy, Joseph Fuller Jr, Fanny Hicks, my servant and the new married couple; came home about 2:20. My late servant stood the shop for me during my absence. Sam Jenner, coming in the evening, stayed with my servant for company and also took part of my bed. Pretty busy in the day, but oh, the torment of my mind–I hardly know what to do!
 

Tuesday, February 8 1763

…My late servant dined with me on a piece of a sparerib salted and boiled and some Savoy greens. At home all day and pretty busy. My late servant stayed all night. Oh, the disquietude of my mind! why should I let thoughts run so in my head that disturb my tranquillity of mind when I rest assured that whatever happens by the appointment of heaven is right, is best?

Friday, February 11 1763

In the forenoon posted part of my day book. I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. In the afternoon my brother came over to stand the shop for me, I being a-going to Uckfield. I set out on foot about 5:50 and called on Mr French to accompany me agreeable to appointment, but the weather being likely to prove unpleasant, I stayed and drank tea there and spent the evening till about 7:30.

Elizabeth Trill drank tea with my brother in my absence. My brother stayed and smoked a pipe or two with me and then went home.

Saturday, February 12 1763

…I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. Rec’d by Philip from my brother Moses in cash 8.15.0, for which I sent him 1 draft on Mr Will Margesson…

At home all day. Almost a continual wet day. In the evening Mr Long sat with me a little time. This day agreed with John Watford to keep Elizabeth Burrage another year, the parish being to find her in clothes. Oh, melancholy time!
 

Sunday, February 13 1763

Myself and servant at church in the morning… I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. Myself and servant both at church in the afternoon… Rec’d of the Rev Mr Porter £4 in full for the interest of £100 due from him to this parish the 20th Nov. last for the same sum left to this parish by the will of Samuel Atkins Esq deceased, which interest is yearly to be distributed among the poor of this parish according to the will and liking of the minister and officers of the parish.

We accordingly disposed of the said interest money as follows:

Richard Brazier0.2.0Susan Burrage0.1.0
Edward Babcock0.1.0John Durrant0.4.0
Widow Dan0.2.0Thomas Tester0.6.0
James Emery0.3.0Richard Vinal0.3.0
Peter Adams0.2.0
Richard Heath0.3.0Ann Woods0.1.0
Sam Jenner0.3.0Will Eldridge0.8.0
Richard Prall0.3.0Thomas Ling0.3.0
John Streeter0.2.0Thomas Roase0.5.0
Susan Swift0.2.0Widow Cain0.2.0
Will Starks [Slarks]0.5.0Widow Cornwell0.2.0
Francis Turner0.3.0Will Sinden0.3.0
Widow Trill0.2.0Thomas Dalloway0.2.0
Sarah Thunder0.3William Elphick0.5.0
4.3.0

As the sum given away did exceed the interest money, Mr Porter made it up out of the money given at the sacrament. As there were several people in the list who were not at church, I kept the money for them and they were as under:

James Emery0.3.0
Will Elphick0.5.0
Richard Heath0.3.0
Peter Adams0.2.0
013.0

which money I stand debtor to them for.

After church I and Joseph Fuller went into Mr Porter’s, where we stayed and smoked several pipes of tobacco. Came home about 6:50. Paid Mr Porter 1/- for the burying of John Dan who was buried today. In the evening we had a great deal of snow fall, but no frost. Indeed it snowed at times all day. In the evening read one of Tillotson’s sermons.