Thomas Turner

…In the forenoon my old acquaintance Mr Tipper came to see me and dined with me on some beefsteaks fried… Rec’d of Mr Richard Bristed in cash 4.18.0 in full for his and Thomas Pelham Esq’s poor tax due from the rate made the 24th March last. Mr Tipper drank tea with me and stayed all night. At home all day except just taking a walk with Mr Tipper for air in the evening…

I dined on Some broiled sausages. Paid Thomas Davy in goods and cash 0.4.9 in full for the same sum he paid yesterday at the feast of our society at Mayfield, which, as a member thereof, is in full of my arrears.

I drank tea with Thomas Durrant. At home all day and pretty busy. Sam Jenner, coming in the evening, took part of my bed.

…sent Mr James Blake…£50. Delivered to Ben Shelley in cash £42 in order for him to pay the same in London for me… I had not time to eat any dinner today.

Mr Sam Gibbs and his wife and daughter, Dame Wrothwell, Dame Marwick’s and the Rev Mr James drank tea with me. At home all day and very busy.

I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. Lent Mr Thomas Carman the 32.11.0 I received of Mr Thomas Porter the 23rd instant on the parish account and received his note of hand for the same payable to Mr Porter, Jeremiah French and myself, or any of us, for any of our order on demand and with interest for the same after the rate of three pounds percent per annum in trust for the parish.

In the evening wrote my London letters. At home all day and thank God very busy.

Rec’d of Richard Hope 38/- in full for poor tax… Took physic today. Not at church in the morning. I dined on some boiled veal and pork and greens. My servant at church in the afternoon. Sam Jenner sat with me during church-time and also drank tea with me, and to whom I read 2 of Tillotson’s sermons.

At home all day and not at all well. Oh, may I, may I through divine assistance become a new man! May this be the arae of my thorough conversion.

Rec’d of Mr Porter in cash and a bank note 32.11.0 as the following gratuities toward repairing our church:

His own gratuity	10.10.0
The Duke Newcastle’s	21.0.0
Mr Sam Durrant’s	1.1.0
	32.11.0

which sum I am debtor to the parish for.

Paid Joseph Fuller Jr 12d for 4 lbs of veal bought of him today. I dined on some veal boiled and some sausages broiled. At home all day. Wrote out some bills.

But oh, my mind, my mind! I who in the days of yore was happy, happy! in that blessing of a good wife am now quite miserable.

The bank bill I received of Mr Porter today was the same in all respects; with that I received of Mr Burgess the 12th instant except the No. which was H 222.

I dined on some broiled sausages. At home all day… [At home all day]. Oh, my mind, my mind, what can support a man under such an afflicted conscience?

At home all day. I dined on some boiled sausages. Oh, how bad are I! Nothing, no, nothing but tumult and outrage is in my breast. May it please God to bless me with a true and real piety that I may never more be guilty of that sin of intemperance.

Mrs Fuller and her 2 daughters drank tea with me.

At home all day. I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. But, alas! who can describe–no, imagination itself can’t paint the anxiety of my mind. I loathe, abhor and even detest myself. Oh, the infirmities and frailty of nature!

Delivered to Mr Ben Shelley in cash 40 guineas for him to pay in London for me. I dined on part of a calf’s pluck. Oh, my insupportable mind! Who can support the terrors of a wounded conscience? Oh! do I detest myself! Let me fly to divine justice for mercy and humbly ask grace to prevent my misdoing again.