Thursday, January 20 1763

Sam Jenner, being a-cleaving; of logs for me, dined with me on the remains of Tuesday’s dinner. Halland servants drank tea at my house, as did my worthy acquaintance Mr John Breeden of Pevensey and his daughter, who came to my house in the evening on their journey from Epsom to Pevensey, the latter [two] of whom supped and stayed at my house all night.

At home all day and pretty busy. But yet how insupportable is that load which hangs on my mind! who can tell? No, not anyone but they that freer the agonies of a troubled mind.

John Piper made me a present of a carp.

Wednesday, January 19 1763

…Thomas Durrant drank tea with me. Sam Jenner, coming to my house in the evening, lodged at my house.

At home all day, but oh, my uneasy mind! Well might the wise man say, a wounded conscience who can bear? For was it not for our manifold crimes, the spirit of mankind would sustain his infirmities. But as we daily become obnoxious to the divine vengeance by our manifold and daily crimes, I think any thinking creature must be full of disquietudes.

Tuesday, January 18 1763

Dame Akehurst, a-washing for me all day, dined with me on a chick pudding and potatoes. This day balanced accounts with James Fuller… Balanced accounts with John and Richard Page, sons of the widow Page…

Just as I was undressed and going [to bed], Mr Ed Shoesmith of Laughton and Mr Edward Stiles of Brighthelmstone called to see me and really we sat so long that I am go unhappy to say I went to bed very much in liquor. I have once more taken a resolution, and I hope that a firm one, which through divine grace I hope steadfastly to adhere to; that is, never to drink anything stronger than wine and water for the least quantity of anything so soon intoxicates my weak brains that I do as it were loathe myself upon the account of it.

At home all day and very little to do. Paid Dame Akehurst 18d for her 2 days’ work. A most melancholy time.

Friday, January 14 1763

In the forenoon Mr French and I walked up again to Edward Hope’s, but could do nothing, the master insisting the servant should not leave his service, and the girl will not consent to swear the fact.

I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner with the addition of a light pudding and turnips. Rec’d of Mrs Atkins by Fanny Hicks 0.14.1. Rec’d of Mr John Purdue by Francis Gibbs Jr £8 in full for one year’s land tax due for [i-e., paid on] the officer of excise’s salary at Lady Day next.

Fanny Hicks, James Marchant, Fanny Weller and Bett Mepham drank tea with me, and they stayed and spent the evening with me and played at brag. They all met by accident, coming to buy goods in the shop, Fanny Weller excepted. I won at cards 2/2½.

Thursday, January 13 1763

I dined on the remains of yesterday’s dinner. Rec’d of his Grace the Duke of Newcastle, from Mr William Michell, 7.19.0 (per James Fuller) in full for half a year’s land tax for Halland House and woodlands due St Michael last.

Master Hope’s servant being big with child, I walked to his house to talk with her about it, Thomas Durrant accompanying me. We came back about 7:30. I supped and spent the remainder of the evening at Master Durrant’s. Very little to do all day. A very cold sharp frosty day, as there has been every day since the 24th ult., the ice in many places being 7 inches thick.
 

Tuesday, January 11 1763

Rec’d of John Nutley 20/- in full for half a year’s land tax due at St Michael last. In the evening Thomas Durrant, Joseph Fuller Jr and I walked down to see Sam Jenner and spent the evening and supped with him. Came home about 12:30, sober.

Dame Akehurst, being to brew for me tomorrow, lodged with my servant, as did Thomas Durrant with me. Mrs Vine the younger drank tea with me.