Sunday, January 4 1756

My wife and I both at church this morning, the text in James 4:11: “Speak not evil one of another, brethren.” We were also both at church in this afternoon, the text in Ephesians 4:32: “And be ye kind one to another, tender-hearted, forgiving one another even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.” After churchtime my wife and I went down to Joseph Fuller’s, where we met Mrs Day and Miss Suky. We drank tea there and stayed until 8:20. A remarkably wet day.

Saturday, January 3 1756

In the morning I went down to Mr French’s; brought home my hog, and Joseph Fuller Jr killed him for me. Paid for 10 dozen quills 10d. Mr Barnard, Mr Pooley’s rider, called on me. I paid him in cash 0.7.0 and there remains due to Mr William Pooley 22.0.0. I paid Frank Smith… in full for money paid in London for me as under:

1755 24 Dec. to Messrs Tooke and Bond in full 2.0.0

1755 24 Dec. to William Ashmorer for 2 gallons rum, which I got for Mrs Day 0.16.0

1756 1 Jan. to Messrs Margesson and Collison      20.0.0

For 1 pair of shoes for S. T.                    0. 3.9

Ditto for bacon got for Thomas Ling 0.4.9

23.4.6

Went down to John Jones’s with Mr Barnard; stayed about 10 minutes. Mr Barnard not having halfpence enough, to save changing I lent him 1d and agreed to give Grace Grover 3d for him. Charles Diggens spent the evening with us until near 7 o’clock. Afterwards I went down to Mr Porter’s and carried them in silver 2.16.0 and received of Mrs Porter one guinea and one 36/- piece, which makes together 2.17.0; so that I am indebted to Mrs Porter 12d. Rec’d of William Burrage 6/11½ in full for his son Richard’s schooling etc. After supper read 10 numbers in The Freeholder.

Friday, January 2 1756

Samuel Slater went home in the forenoon. I was at home all the morning. In the evening all Mr Porter’s servants came to see us, and they and Thomas Davy stayed and played at cards with us; my wife and I lost 7½d. I went down to Mr French’s about 4:20 concerning a fat hog I am to have of him tomorrow. Rec’d of William Sinden 1 gallon of oats. Paid Master Piper 6d for 1 peck of oats received yesterday. Gave Samuel Slater 1 salt fish, value 11d.

Thursday, January 1 1756

This day rec’d of Master Piper 1 peck of oats. Samuel Slater stayed all day. Rec’d a letter from Mr James Hodges, wherein he sends to me for money which has been paid these 20 months.

This day my wife and I had a great many words, but for what reason I cannot recount, though doubtless if we could be proper judges of our own actions we should find that we are both but too much to blame and possibly should find all our differences to arise from so trivial a cause that we both might have cause to blush. But oh! was marriage ever designed to make mankind unhappy? No! unless by their own choice. It’s made so by both parties being not satisfied with each other’s merit. But sure this cannot be my own affair, for I married, if I know my own mind, with nothing in view but entirely to make my wife and self happy and to live in a course of virtue and religion and to be a mutual help and assistance to each other, I was neither instigated to marry by avarice, ambition, nor lust. No, nor was I prompted to it by anything; only the pure and desirable sake of friendship. Sure, many of my actions must be convincing proofs of love and friendship (to one who once I hoped to be ever dear to); though other of my actions may doubtless in the eye of the world render me not so, but if in my worst actions were the motives traced up to their first origin I doubt not but my sincere love and friendship would there appear in still more stronger lights. Oh, what am I a-going to say I have done? I have almost made as it were a resolution to make a separation, I mean by settling my affairs and parting in friendship, out is this that for what I married? Oh, how are my views frustrated from the prospect of a happy and quiet life to the enjoyment of one that is quite the opposite! Oh, were I but endued with the patience of Socrates; then might I be happy, but as I am not I will endeavor to pacify myself with the cheerful reflection that I am well assured I have done to my utmost to render our union happy, easy, good and comfortable to ourselves and progeny.

Tuesday, December 30 1755

…Mr Porter came and informed me that he had received advice from his tenant in [Essex] that there was 30.13.0 paid to Messrs Margesson and Collison on my account. After dinner Master Durrant and I went to Mr Miller’s… We came home about 8:25; overtook Master Dapp near Edward Russell’s, very much in liquor, but he came home with us. Master Durrant stayed and smoked one pipe with me after he came home. Paid Elizabeth Mepham 6d for making a round frock… Rec’d of William Sinden ½ bushel of wheat.

Monday, December 29 1755

Dr Snelling went away after breakfast. I paid him half a crown for cutting my seton and likewise am to pay John Jones for his [Dr Snelling’s] horse’s hay, oats etc. 18d, which together makes 4/-. Oh, could it have been imagined that he could have taken anything of me, considering that I paid him £39 for curing my wife, great part of which I paid him before he had it due, and all of it within 5 months after he had performed the cure! I always do and ever did use him after the best manner I was capable of when he was at our house. He was that man that never gave my servants anything, no, not even the meanest trifle that could be. Notwithstanding they always waited on him like as if they were his own servants. Oh, thou blackest of fiends, ingratitude, what an odious color and appearance dost thou make! Oh, may the most ever to be adored Supreme Excellency that sees and views all our most private and secret actions and even knows our most secret thoughts before we bring them into action guide me with his grace that I may never be guilty of that hateful crime, not even so much as to indulge an ungrateful thought!

George Richardson called on us in his way from Dallington to Lewes. I gave him a bill (on account of his master Mr John Madgwick) which I this day drew on Messrs Margesson and Collison… value 10.10.0. In the afternoon my wife went to Mrs Day’s. I went to her about 6:15. We stayed and supped there and played at cards; to wit, at whist, Mrs Day and my wife against Miss Day and myself, so of consequence we lost nothing. Came home about 2:05; we each of us gave the maid 6d. I gave Samuel Hammond 3d for his box.

Sunday, December 28 1755

About 9:15 George Richardson called on us in his way to Dallington. Stayed about 30 minutes. My wife and I both at church in the morning… Gave 2d to a church brief. My wife and I both at church in the afternoon… While we were at church my brother Moses came and came to church and after churchtime drank tea with us. Just as we were drinking tea, Dr Snelling came in, as did two Halland men. Dr Snelling cut me a seton and stayed all night. My brother and Halland two men went away about 7:50.

Saturday, December 27 1755

At home all day. Delivered in Mrs Coates’s bill (by her boy) to the 25th December… Gave away to boys for their Christmas box 21d as under:

To James Fuller              0.1.0

to Ben Mott                  0.0.6

to John Barnard              0.0.3

Paid Joseph Durrant 2d for 1 peck turnips. My brother William went away after breakfast for Framfield. Our maid went to her friends’. In the evening I wrote out several bills.

Friday, December 26 1755

About 11 o’clock my brother William came to see us and dined with us. After dinner I went down to Jones’s (it being a meeting of the parish for choosing of surveyors). The company there was J. French, T. and J. Fuller, Edward and Richard Hope, J. Watford and son, T. Reeve, J. Durrant, W. Rice, W. Piper, J. Burgess, J. Hutson, J. Cayley and Robert Hook. The surveyors chosen for the year 1756 were John Cayley and Robert Hook; the electioners [or alternate], Joseph Durrant and James Hutson. I stayed there about 2 hours; came home about 5:30. About 6:30 William Piper, T. and J. Fuller and P. Adams came in here from the parish meeting. Peter Adams, went away directly. Joseph Fuller went away about 7:30 very much in liquor. About 9:30 I went home with William Piper and Thomas Fuller as far as Mr Piper’s.